I suppose it’s been a bit since I’ve written anything.  I want to say I’ve been busy, but that wouldn’t necessarily be true. 

Work…but who wants to talk about that!  We had my brother and sister-in law and 2 nephews here last week.  Huge change having a house full of people compared to just the two of us.  It was really nice to have family around.  Really makes me wish we lived closer to everyone.  I would be okay with people popping by all the time. 

Okay so now this whole life style change thing.  I feel like a complete mess!!!!  So I was breaking out in this hot rash ordeal.  Went through all sorts of tests – note I still haven’t gotten results back from last week!  But I was told that it wasn’t a rash that it was flushing.  So okay, what the heck is  causing this flushing?  Hasn’t really happened the last week.  It’s like I can feel it coming on but it doesn’t go full blown.  But they are positive it’s not an allergy of any kind (it’s not a raised rash…)  My only guesses are that it’s some sort of emotional reaction (stress/anxiety?).  Or it’s hormonal.  But the way the drs are with the tests….the world may never know.  I did have the allergist tell me that it may just go away or you may just need to take benedryl whenever it happens. Oh, okay…let’s not try to figure out why or anything….I’ll just accept that and carry on.  Why not.  (I really dislike drs.)

Okay cool.  So supposedly I’m not allergic to anything.  Well my gut will tell you that something is not making me happy.  I’ve cut down on nuts (pretty much eliminated them).  I swear when this is all said and done I’m going to be down to eating 5 things if I’m lucky.  I may not be allergic per se, but my body and digestive system do not like cashews, peppers, onions and cooked tomatoes (raw ones seem to be okay).  Fantastic.  I’ve read all sorts of things on what could cause this.  Overly fatty diet, which other than the nuts, I’ve stuck to lean everything.  So I don’t know that that’s it. 

I mean for the last (almost) 2 months I have not strayed, eaten anything I wasn’t supposed to. I’ve stuck to this thing to the letter. Not one slip up! (even when I made the minion cup cakes and all the other crap I cook for other people)  I have been a bit frustrated with the lack of weigh loss since month one.  I threw the scale this morning.  Made sure it was broken so I don’t have to worry about that factor any more!  I’m pretty much committed to the tape measure at this point.  Now I know it could be a number of factors.  And the scale weight is just a measurement of the mass of your body at that given time.  It  doesn’t tell the whole story.  Which I get, but I’m not exercising like I think I should be.  This is where I’ve slacked off.  But because I have such a struggle with food, I’m really not worried about extending the stages a bit until I feel like I have this food thing under control.  Then I can work on the strength.  I have just been so pre-occupied with not  falling off the wagon and giving into temptations that I’ve put phase 2 on the back burner for a few weeks. (and hoping my gut and flushing spells will work themselves out so I can move on).

I was sleeping really good and then this last week not so much.  I think I’m stressing over all this physical stuff.  I need to stop being so intense about everything and just go with it.  I really have no reason what so ever to be stressed about anything right now.  So not sure what my problem is.  I mean wow…stressing over not having to be stressed?  Drama queen much?