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More Real Talk about Cancer and Shit
The Flares I’ve been dealing with cancer for ten years.Metastatic cancer for a little over three. I’m finally starting to understand what’s happening when my body reacts the way it does. And when I say body, I mean all of it — physical, mental, and emotional. You don’t get to separate those things when you’re…
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Coming Back to the Heart of Making of a Diva
I started Making of a Diva when I was turning 40. Back then, it wasn’t about cancer. It wasn’t about diagnoses or scans or treatment plans. It was about identity. Transition. That quiet, unsettling moment when you realize life doesn’t look the way you thought it would — and you’re not entirely sure who you…
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Stable Isn’t the Same as Easy

I got my scan results back. They’re stable. No progression. This is when you would think the natural reaction would be joy, happiness and relief. When you have early stage cancer it’s happy, you are relieved! You are one step closer to the end. Not with Metastatic (Stage 4) Part of me is relieved sure.…
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Finding My Second Wind
For the first time in a long while, I feel a spark again.It’s subtle, but it’s there — a second wind that’s guiding me toward something meaningful. I have a few projects on the horizon that I’m genuinely excited about, and that excitement feels… new. Familiar in a way, yet deeply different. Maybe that’s because…
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Grieving Your Youth
I’m 55 years old, on the cusp of 56, and I feel like I’m standing in two worlds at once. In my mind, I’m still in my thirties—maybe late twenties on a good day. But when I look in the mirror or feel the way my body moves, I can’t deny the truth: youth has…
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Grieving the Old Me with Stage IV Cancer
Grief with stage IV cancer isn’t just about death—it’s about losing pieces of yourself while you’re still here. I grieve the life I had. The ability to plan a day and actually do it. The energy to say yes without wondering if I’ll be too fatigued, in pain, or stuck at another surprise blood draw.…
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Radiation Sessions: Getting the Authorities Involved
Radiation sessions for this crazy party are officially complete. I like to think they made an example out of this group—showing the others that we’re not putting up with any nonsense. In case you missed: I think of every lesion and tumor as a party. The party in my hip got a bit out of…
