It’s been quite some time since I have posted anything.  Again I completely forgot I had this.  I really need to write down or schedule in “blogging time.”

So what has been going on the last 5 months of my life.  My baby kitty is no longer with us.  It was a very sad day.  But she did live 17 1/2 years.  So the old girl had a good run.  doesn’t mean I miss her any less!

Erik moved out and took Lucy with him.  Kind of bummed about that.  But very happy he has a good job and is out on his own starting his life.  It makes me a very happy mamma to see that he is finally getting to call the shots.  I just hope he does realize that regardless of anything I’ll always be there for him. It’s kind of a mom thing.

In September I went to NY to spend some time with none other than the one and only Danny. (see photos under the travel tab!) It’s kind of a thing it seems.  But as always we had a total blast.  I’ll have to upload the pictures from the adventure!  It’s always an epic time when we get together.  He helps keep me grounded.

And the big news.  Pete was offered a job in Missoula Montana.  His last day of work in Colorado was October 16th and he started his new job on October 19th.  So it’s been exactly 1 month since that has happened.  I’m staying in Colorado til the house sells.

I always say that everything happens for a reason and the way it’s supposed to.  This whole situation is just that.  Although it would have been nice to sell the house and move up to Montana right away…I think there are lessons I’m (We) are supposed to learn by this whole situation. Once we realize these lessons I feel the universe will let us move on. One of the biggest ones I have come to realize is how much I take for granted some of the things Pete does around the house.  And I really really really don’t like being away from him this long.  But that I already knew.  The longest we had ever been apart in the last 19 years has been 2 weeks.  So this is kind of a big deal.

My first few weeks by myself were really hard.  I was not adjusting well and was in the whole anxiety panic attack mode.  That was fun.  That also spirals pretty fast.  But I have been trying to be as positive as I can and do a whole lot of self talk.  I’ve decided to try to make the best of this entire situation.  It was easier when I was working because it gave me something else to focus on.  But once my last day of work came around it was really really difficult.  So after many hours of talking myself off the ledge I’ve come to a sort of acceptance.  Mind you I still hate the current situation, but an old lesson comes into play….you don’t have to agree with something but you sometimes need to just accept it.  So here we are at acceptance.   I’ve stopped fighting and trying to push the situation.  I’m going to use this time wisely to see if I can’t set down some foundations and do a little more soul searching (My GOD how much of that must I do in a lifetime?  Obviously until I figure that shit out)  No one said I was quick to learn lessons….that’s for sure.  Okay so we are going to do this again.  You know if I would just pay attention and remember some of the things I learned maybe I wouldn’t have to keep repeating and having to go through the same stuff all the time.

But anyway.  This is what has been going on.  Not really overly exciting.  It could be a lot worse for sure.  So I’m going to continue to put out the positive vibes and pay attention!