Not that there really is any drama…it’s always such an attention grabber!

Today is Friday.  Nothing happened at all today.  Very uneventful day.  So  we are in the midst of a limbo situation here.  I’m staying behind wrapping up Colorado life and my husband is in Montana ramping up Montana life.  It’s been 2 months since the house was put on the market and he has been up in Montana for a month.  I find myself asking people for advice.  Which most people are so self absorbed and drama laden that it’s a complete waste of energy to do so.  I think the biggest thing I have learned this last month is that people generally suck.  People offer to help, but they don’t want to really help…or they want to help in what THEY want to help with, not so much what you really need.  They want to make themselves feel good.  Because here in this day and age it’s all about what makes you feel good.  Screw the real needs of individuals.  The fact that you can say “Well I offered to ___________”  And you have then gotten the acceptance and overwhelming phrase you were looking for.  Good for you.

Since there are very few people that I can truly talk to about issues….I mean honestly.  Everyone I seem to talk to somehow turns it about them.  Wouldn’t it be crazy if I got to just vent and make it about me for just one day? (thus my own freakin blog!  Try to shut me up!  Just try!)  But again…people are entitled and in that entitlement…they are the most important person in the whole wide world.  And besides…I’m sure in there they asked how you were in some back assed way.  But I suppose in everyone’s defense…what do you say to someone who is going through a bunch of shit.  I mean you have a few types of people.  One type that will avoid you because, OMG you may ask them for something and they really don’t want to hear your problems…I mean they have their own issues.  Then you have the other type that completely thrives on the drama of every situation.  They are the gems to talk to.  They will bring up everything they think you did wrong..they will add their “what if” statements that are always a comfort, they will add fuel to the fire to get you even more upset than you were before  (…but what…I am helping).

The other thing I find it interesting is that once you are of no use to someone they dismiss you completely.  You never realize who your true friends are (and aren’t) until you leave or are trying to leave.  I was looking at my Face Book list of friends the other day.  So many people that would talk to me when I worked with them or were involved in some event or something (because they needed something…)  But as soon as that stops…they don’t bother with you any more.  I find that very interesting about humans.  I’m not going to say I don’t do it as well, because I do.  I try not to…I mean I try to touch base with people on some level every so often.  But lately….why bother.

So as I’m trying to keep my own shit together.  I do a whole lot of blocking  (youuurrrrr Blocking…old SNL skit reference)  I talk to myself probably way too much.  And the dog.  She’s my comic relief.  So I think I’m going to stick with Cleo stories and positivity.  Otherwise this entire Blog is going to be me bitching about humanity.  But on the other hand that could be rather interesting.  But seriously, I really am trying to keep it as positive as I can.  But I am human and I’m going to fall off the wagon every so often and RANT! RANT! RANT!  Like some Nastiiieee Prostitution Whorah!!!!!!