I have been in the throws of packing and purging.  I rented one of those dumpster bins. I got rid of like everything.  Beds, shelves, wood, trash,  desks, lights, chairs….gone!  I have to say the actual throwing away of things was very therapeutic.  But the destruction of some of these things was beyond therapeutic.  I’m sure there is a term, but it was amazing!  Something about smashing the hell out of things with a hammer and then getting to throw it away.  It was an amazing experience.  See…channeling my stress….

The movers are scheduled, the truck is scheduled, the disassembling of the pool table is scheduled.  I’m spending the next week packing the remainder of the stuff in the house.  I only have like 17 days so I have to go to like minimum.  I have to stop being afraid to just pack it up!  No one else is going to do it so… All the packing materials came today.  So no excuses at all.  Tomorrow I start in the loft and I’m just going to work my way around.  Then I have to organize the garage!  So I am going to be crazy busy.

Birthday was kind of a success.  Even though Pete was not here….he still sent me a birthday present. (the computer was supposed to be the birthmas present but…)  The kids came over and totally surprised me with the necklace I wanted.  I honestly didn’t think he would really get it.  So I was kind of in shock!  We did Christmas too.  That was fun.  Then we ate a lot of snack food, tiramisu, cannolis, almond amaretto cake, and tiramisu gelato.  It was pretty amazing.

Broke down and finally gave up my Galaxy today.  It was driving me crazy.  I am going to give this Windows Lumina 950 a shot.  See how that works out.  It’s very different than what I’m used to.  But I’m going to give it a shot.  I don’t want to get another Galaxy because it has its own issues.  I refuse to have another iPhone.  So I’m running out of options.  Pete hates his LG, but Erik loves his Nokia.  I’m totally going to live on the edge! (no pun intended)  The one thing I do wish is that it had the same apps as the desktop version.  But there was a time Andriod didn’t have as many as Apple.  So who knows.  It could be a major contender in a few years!  I just can’t do Galaxy for the same reason I won’t do iPhone.  They are out of control.  Galaxy is the iPhone of the android world in my mind.  They are too commercialized.  I’ve never been one to go along with the crowd!  Galaxy wasn’t real popular when I switched from the iPhone…now look what happened!  So maybe I can make the Windows phone the next big thing!

I’m still playing with it.  Some things I really like.  Some things I think I just have to get used to.  I mean I’ve had an Andriod for quite a few years, and I really just wanted a whole new feel and experience.  Well, I’m getting that!  But I’m finding it amazing how hard it is to cross over from Google to Windows.  There are some things that work…but others that don’t.  So we’ll see if they give in and give access to some google apps (Hangouts, Chrome….why Windows 10 hates Chrome so much…)  Well…I’ll give this a couple years and see how it goes.  I do have to say, the actual phone works a lot better!  I talked to Pete and with my Galaxy he was all garbled and I couldn’t never really hear him…very frustrating.  But with the Windows phone….didn’t have that problem.  So that was nice.  And the camera is kind of cool.  Definitely pros and cons.

Not much going on at this point.  I don’t really have anything to rant about outside the usual incompetence and ignorance of the human race.  So nothing new on this front.  All I will say on that topic is 1. you are not the only one in the world…you actually share this planet with others.  2. Read. Do research. Don’t take the word of a meme or overly zealous friend ranting on their opinion. 3. Think before you talk. And before you open your mouth think if someone was saying that to you.  How would you take your own words?

I think I’m done with all the holiday shopping.  Ten more days until we do our little celebration.  I have that to get excited about.  I sent out a package to Pete today.  (I just had a total deja vu moment!)  I’m still trying to decide if I’m going to decorate.  I am still totally up in the air about it.  I’ll have to see how I feel about it this weekend.  I think it’s going to come down to the fate of the universe in the next few days.

It was 69 degrees today.  Which is really weird for this time of year.  But I’m not going to complain about it.  I got the leaves all raked up today. That was fun.  A big yard is great until you have to rake that shit.  So  I don’t know if I would want to rake a yard any bigger than we have. I have a love-hate relationship with yard work at this juncture of my life.  Maybe if I was in better shape I would feel different about it.  I keep trying to look at it as the Rocky Balboa school of getting in shape.

I was supposed to go back to my cutting out the grains/wheat/dairy this week.  I’ve been so stressed over the state of the house that I did good for a day, but that was about it.  So I am going to try it again this weekend. Tomorrow I’m going to try not to be too stupid.  I really wanted ice cream (frozen yogurt) but quickly remembered every time I eat any type of frozen desert it never ends well.  So I opted for a cup of tea.  I have to get back into the state of mind of when I feel like I deserve a treat to just drink a glass of water or a cup of tea.

Let’s hope we get some good news tomorrow and I can move forward with everything!

I really never thought I had a problem.  I mean I save things because I like to keep what people give me.  I save things because you never know if you may need it again someday.  And I save things because when you come across it every so often it’s like getting presents!

I’m in the process of packing the house up.  And of course, you have to go through everything.  On the up side, I found my DD214 I thought I lost…and my VA loan certificate.  So it was kind of an eventful evening!  Wow.  Some of the things I keep.  I really need to go through and file everything at least.  I suppose I could do that now since I really have nothing else to do.  But most likely I will wait. It will be part of my setting up and organizing the new house when that time comes.  We must not rush into these things!

I’m sure there are a whole lot of things I could still get rid of.  But the fact that I am actually throwing stuff out is a good thing.  It’s a big deal for me to get rid of things.  So I’m totally going to do this in stages.  I think it’s the best solution for me at this time.

I’m in the process of tackling the loft i.e. the reading room.  I went through the closet and next are books.  I have hundreds of books.  So my plan is to keep the ones I absolutely can’t part with.  Then take the rest over to the library or maybe the bookstore in town.  I just need to know that they will go somewhere that people will appreciate them.

Once the loft is cleared out I can move to what used to be my craft room.  that isn’t going to take much time since I pretty much already went through this room once.  It’s just a matter of putting things that are left in boxes.  (Have no idea how I’m going to transport mom…that’s a whole different story…poor mom)

but I’m just going to go through one room at a time.  Trying to keep myself occupied at this point.  I’m sort of a wreck.  Inspection is on Monday and although I know everything will be fine, I have to be the forever pessimist just in case something goes wrong and I’m not disappointed.  I really have to stop doing that…positive feeds positive…. Anyhoo.  After next week hopefully I’ll be a little more relaxed about most things.  Because then there is a whole different phase of stress to deal with.  I have been trying to compartmentalize the entire situation.  Working very hard on just worrying about one thing at a time.  I think if I were to try to handle everything at once I would drive myself crazy.  So now that I’m over the stressing over the showings and why no one has made an offer yet….I’m onto OMG I hope these people don’t back out and everything goes smooth regarding all the inspections and loan processes and titles.  After that is done I can worry about packing everything and the logistics of the actual move.  And then the whole once I get to Montana deal….I can’t go there yet.

Needless to say, I have moved from wine to Rum and/or vodka.

IT’S ALL A MESS!!!!!!!!!!