It’s always reassuring when you have something administered into your body with the names “Red Death” and “The Red Devil” by someone with all sorts of protective gear on.  After 24 hours that part is starting to sink in. Needless to say it’s some pretty potent shit.  Well see how these next 8 weeks go.
I am not going to spend a lot of time on what I’ve read and what I’ve been told because everyone’s chemo/cancer journey is different.  Another 46 year old with the exact diagnosis as me could have a very different experience.  So with that in mind these posts are specific to my situation and expirience and should in no way be taken on how it will be for everyone else or substitute speaking with your own team for advice or answers to questions.

Now with that out of the way…

It’s been a little up and down as the steroids are starting to wear off.  At any twinge of nausea I take the meds.  I have to say I did not sleep the first night for fear of not waking up.  Breathing would slow down and then I would freak out that Pete was okay.  So about 11:30 I moved to the living room so at least someone can sleep.  Cleo will follow me so she will leave him alone as well. 
I did catch about 30 minutes and the apartment living kicked in. 
So I’ve been sitting here since about 1 trolling sites and playing games.  It’s now about 4:30am. 
I took more meds at 3 am since I was due and the nausea and anxiety were kicking in.
I did eat last night. Mostly some nuts and some organic whole wheat pesto rolls.  Yay heartburn.  I suppose that will be a thing.  We’ll see what foods I will learn to hate today.  I have been told by the nurses (and docs and pharmacist) that my taste buds will change and if I really love a food don’t eat it because after all this I will hate it from here on out. Right now nothing sounds good so I have to find something.  Will probably do smoothies so I can get some nutrients in and not have to actually chew.  We’ll see how that goes.
I’m sure I’ll have more updates….know that they aren’t always going to be fun filled and humorous.  Sorry about that in advance.  But that’s why want to keep this off of FB…I can’t do serious downer posts…..that’s just wrong!