Monday was my 47th birthday. I am glad to have made it this far. Thoughts are all over the place. My step father was 47 when he died of pancreatic cancer. So I feel pretty lucky. I think I’ve been a little blue the last week. One would think that I would be the complete opposite, I mean I have everything to be happy about right now!

I did go on my first job interview Monday. If anything it was a good experience to see where I am as far as being able to answer questions quickly and coherently. I made the decision that it was not a good fit for me for completely unrelated reasons to my mental state of mind. Kind of a bummer because the job seemed like it would have been really fun. It’s nice to actually be in a position to really interview a company and be on the offensive vs. the defensive. But mentally I’m not quite there yet. I’m getting there. I still can’t think of all the words I want to use yet. And my thoughts aren’t up to the level I want them to be. So I continue to do word puzzles and logic games.

So my eyebrows are falling out again. It seems this is normal. Hair has a cycle. When you lose all your hair from chemo all the hairs are on the same cycle so fall out all at once vs at different times.  I hope it is limited to my eyebrows and eye lashes! If my hair falls out again I guess I need to invest in a really good wig.

I’ve been on the Aromasin for a month and a half now. Hot flashes continue, but aren’t too bad. They are tolerable. I’m still getting fatigued which is really annoying. But the biggest complaint I have is the pain in my legs, hips, arms, hands and feet. My hands are swelling a little bit. I also haven’t been working out because I’ve been too tired. But I also haven’t been eating as good as I need to or drinking enough water.

Wow isn’t this turning out to be a total bitch session.  It could be worse. I shouldn’t complain….its a small price to pay for my life.