I guess I’m only going to update once a month these days. I’m kind of slacking, but, in my defense, I’ve been super busy with things. So it’s been kind of crazy. So let’s see what’s gone on the last 2 months!

Business: Geeze. So much work. I pretty much have most everything in place. I’m working on a few other ideas I have. Weddings seem to be taking precedence over everything right now for some reason. I have everything up on WeddingWire and a few other sites. I have all my forms and processes pretty much down. I just have to finish my Wedding Workbook for clients. I think I’m going to include it in full planning and be purchased for any other package. The website is pretty much done. I have to work on the SEO side of it right now. But there is also the Boutique that needs to be added. That’s going to be something I work on for next year I think.  I have 2 weddings booked for July at this point and a meeting for one next August. So the wedding side of thing is starting to move along. The next thing I want to tackle is the Funeral portion. and then finally the social. I’ll do corporate events but I don’t know that I’m going to promote it a whole lot. We’ll see how things plan out.  So in addition to all this planning stuff, I’m working on my Signing Agent Certification. I have to do a little more research with this. I have some time.  The more I think about things the more I think I need to start pushing the boutique a little sooner than later.  I have so many ideas on what I want to do and I’m kinda just going for it all. I will have my empire before too long!

Health: Eh. I’ve actually been doing pretty good. Had my lupron shot last month and it was ugly for a few days, but not nearly as bad as before. But I am getting to the gym at least 4 days a week. Pilates and yoga on the weekend and eating half way decent. And then this week hit. OMG, I’ve been down all week. I blame it on the airplane! That’s the only viable explanation.  So once I get past this I can get back on track. It’s driving me nuts to not be able to do what I want to do! It started with a sore throat, then the fever blisters, then coughing. So much coughing. Then the left eye got all red, swollen, itchy and burning. Then the other eye got the same way. So my eyes are all leaky and get stuck shut. But what’s funny now is, Pete asked me how I was yesterday and my automatic response was “I’ve felt worse.” As much as I’m not a fan of being sick, I’m just glad I didn’t get this while I was in treatment. Things may have turned out a bit different.

Family: Went to go see the kids for mothers day last weekend. I had a wonderful time. It was nice to just hang out and be included in their lives for a few days. I got to spend time with each of them separately and together. I got to watch my son play hockey. It honestly couldn’t have been more wonderful.

So I know the last time I posted I gave myself some “homework” to do. Which for the most part I did stick to. The only thing I really didn’t stick with was the no sugar thing. That’s really hard. But I’m going to keep trying until it sticks. Not in my nature to give up on things. Well, that’s not entirely true. This is my struggle. I feel like I’m always the one that is reaching out to certain people to check in with them. It’s like I’m forcing to keep some sort of relationship. I think it’s harder when those people are family. I mean it’s obvious that they don’t think or care enough about me to just take 20 seconds to just say hi. So why do I continue? I understand that life gets busy and it’s hard to keep up sometimes. But in this day and age with email, texting and social media, I just don’t buy it. If you want to have someone in your life regardless of the miles between you, you will make an effort. But I think you have to come to the realization at some point that not everyone wants YOU in THEIR life. And as sad as that is to me, I think it’s okay. A friend posted something that made me think: “I don’t care about losing people that don’t want to be in my life anymore. I’ve lost people that mean the world to me and I’m doing just fine”

Because I’m not very good at giving up, I feel the same way about people. I don’t like to give up on them. I always have the idea that maybe they are going through a rough patch and they should know that no matter what I will be there if and when they need me. But another part of me is like, come on, other people don’t do that for me, so why should I do it for them. Life is too short to waste time on people who don’t appreciate you. It’s part of my “I have to please everyone” syndrome. Guess that’s something I need to figure out. You know when I was going through treatment, it was the first time in my life I put myself first above everyone else. Becuase I had to. And it seems that having done that I lost some people along the way. I guess I need to take the rose-colored glasses off and see things (and people) for who they really are. I need to focus on all those people who stuck with me and who I realized truly cared. These are the people I need to give my time and energy to.

So again things for me to work on…

1. keep exercising!
2. keep eating lots of fruit and vegetables
3. stay away from added sugars
4. once a week journal and blog! (personal and professional) I struggle with this!
5. Appreciate the right people in your life