Well I can’t very well just start where I am.  Like any good story, I have to give a little bit of history to how I got to where I am! Now I’m not going to go back to the very beginning…that would just be completely dull and boring!  So lets just go back about 6 years or so.

I had been doing administrative work.  Always seemed to have had the role of Office Manager, Executive Assistant, and the one in charge of all company events.  Well not to say that I didn’t love what I did.  I mean there is something about being in charge and running the office and some upper manager’s desk and life.  But because I’m the way  I am I figured I should do more.  This also stems from the fact that I get bored very easily, which I think is why I did so well in this role as everything always changes!  After many conversations with my mom, she kept bringing up this Wedding Planner idea.  Now mind you she has been pushing and trying to sell this to me for years.  I always kind of dismissed her or humored her and would talk for hours about “the plan.”

So one day I thought, well, I have been putting together meetings and movie premieres, big wig visits, company retreats and all sorts of parties and meetings for years.  I realized that it was my favorite part of the job.  I mean “here’s your budget, make something fabulous happen.”  Okay!  How fun is this!  the day of the event you run around like a crazy person, make sure everyone is doing what they are supposed to do, get pulled in 100 different directions, deal with last minute issues….it was wonderful!  And at the end of the event, you would go to some party afterwards or sit and bask in the glory of pulling it all off despite all that happened!

I had gotten hired with a company as an Event Manager for web based events.  Not exactly what I had in mind, but it would give me a different view and knowledge of a different type of event. But with the video portion and the complexity of doing a regular on site event with an off site attendance was a twist. I started getting my ducks in a row to start my own business.  Brainstormed a name, a plan, and my timeline.  I was all set!  I had been attending Bridal Shows networking within the industry.  It was January 2008 and I had just gotten my business name registered and was “official.”  Then 2 days later my mother passed away.  Everything I had worked for seemed to not be important any more.  Being an only child, I was now in charge of my Mom’s estate.  Not exactly the type of event I was wanting to plan at all.

It took me a year before I would even look at all that my mom and I had come up with.  I was on the fence.  Do I let it die with her…I mean how can I go on with this without her.  So I played with it off and on for 3 years.  I was so conflicted.  I doubted myself and it was not looking good.

Then about a year ago I decided that I would put forth an effort and move forward.  I mean it’s what she would tell me I should do.  So in January 2012 I decided to revamp and move forward with all of this.  I did redesign the logo and over all feel.  I added some things that I would offer.  But because I was working my real job 50-60 hours a week, I really had no time to devote to this.

Dad passed away in March which totally made me realize that life is too short.  I mean only child, both parents gone.  I was next!   In June I decided that I needed to make a change.  If I really wanted to do this, and not have that “what if” on my mind I would need to put some time into it.  My job was not going to allow for this.  So, with my very supportive husband, I quit the end of the summer and started to figure out what direction I really wanted to take.

So for the last 3 months I’ve been revamping, learning, researching, deciding.  It took me a month to decompress from the schedule I had been working.  Another month to train myself to see if I can’t learn to put myself first. And this most recent month to start moving forward on my plan.

Of course my plan is not finalized…it’s going to be moving target…and I’m sure it will evolve and change daily.  But it will be exciting and interesting to see where it all leads to!

So here we are.  Almost 3 months after I have made one of the biggest decisions of my life.  That really sounds more dramatic than it is….

I quit my corporate job to try to see what I can do on my own.  I’m still trying to figure out the exact direction I want to go in.  I’ve made the list of “things to do” ….because anyone who knows me knows it wouldn’t be right if I didn’t have a list of some kind!

I have been toying with my new / old business, starting a new business or seeing how I can incorporate everything I want to do here.  So I’m taking until the end of the year to determine my fate.  The more research I do on things the more complex yet exact my list becomes.  Which I think is a good and bad thing.

My problem is that there are so many things I want to do that when people ask me what I want to do or like, there are just way too many things to come up with.

So as  I come up with my ultimate plan…both personal and professional, I have this most wonderful man in my life who is being so patient and understanding with me and letting me “find myself.”
Now I realized that I created this blog almost a year ago…if that gives any indication on how I keep going around in circles!  But now that I’m not being pulled in 500 different directions, maybe I can focus on one direction and stick with it.
And so the story begins.