Day 2.  Wow.  Everyone survived!  I am at headache, I hate the world stage.  So luckily I should have only one more day of this before I get to just, I hate world stage.  At least this time I know what to expect.  But nothing outstanding other than the hadache and a little bit of dizziness.

I think the hardest part for me is to not get on the scale for 30 days!  UGH!  BUT BUT BUT!  So I don’t know about that part. Maybe I’ll just cut it down……NO….it says do not get on your scale for 30 days.  It’s just such a hard concept to shake.  The whole thing is to focus on eating right and how you feel… To pay more attention to how your clothes fit than the number on the scale.  This I think is the hardest part for me since I am so freakin obsessed with that number!

But I can do this.  I can not pay attention to the demon box for 30 days.  It will be good for me!  In order for me to be successful I need to stop obsessing and just go with it.

I’m sitting here trying or organize my entire world today.  I converted MOBI files to EPUB files so I can download them to my Google Play Library.  I set up Google aps and put everything in the world on there.  I even decided to go back to the eating thing again (after the stupid weight gain from stopping!)  As I’m going through everything I realize that I have a WordPress account….and it seems like i used to actually use it. (therer is sarcasm in there)

So last we left off…heck I don’t even know. It was over a year ago I’m sure.  I have gained 30 pounds….I have changed jobs.  My son is a college graduate!  I still don’t sleep.  A lot has been going on!

So I’m going to attempt to start this back up again to see what sort of trouble I can cause!!!

And yes.  Today is once again Day 1 in my journey to be the Diva I was born to be.  Lets see how this goes!!!!

So Day 1.  No sugar, grains, blah blah blah.  Plants, Animals and Water.  got it!  Made jerky today to help the snack thing.  Made eggs and had some bacon.  Did have some pistachios and a tablespoon of peanut butter….and some jerky.  Having sausage tonight for dinner.  I also decided I really need to do yoga to help strenghten my core.  It’s really bad these days.  Now to figure out how the heck I’m going to make myself stick to this!

So I’ve started this whole running thing.  Because I need another hobby.  Hey, at least this one is healthy!

I have this idea in my head that I’m going to run on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturdays.  Then on Sunday, Monday, Wednesday i’m gong to walk and do strength training.  So today I was so NOT in the mood to run after work.  I was tired, hungry…I just wanted to go home and veg out!  Well I was having a conversation with a co-worker about how I read that even if you only do 5 or 10 minutes on the days you are supposed to work out, it’s better than nothing.  Its’ all about getting out and keeping with a schedule.  So I figured FINE! I’ll go and just do like 10 minutes.  Well….it ended up turning into the 30 minutes I usually do, and actually had a better time than I did on Tuesday.  Who knew.  Maybe there is something to this craziness!

This is also day two using my new Garmin 110.  Tuesday it did great.  Today….thing was trippin!  we’ll see what happens on Saturday (the 5k!).  Maybe I started it before the satellites were in place.  I’m pretty sure it was human error….

Had my pre-op call with the nurse today.  Wow.  I understand that they have to ask you all these questions for the anesthesia but…it’s just sooooo painful!

My son is down in Texas for his father’s wedding.  I really hope he has a good time.  They all think I’m some mean person about this, but they don’t quite understand that I truly want them to have a good relationship.  Maybe with this wife he will be able to do that better.

I keep thinking to myself that everything happens for a reason.  You can either fight it, or roll with it.  And usually when you roll with it the outcome is much better.  I’ll save my philosophical thoughts for another post.

So after some time going back and forth about what the heck to do….I’m trying desperately to get my stuff together here!

I started weight watchers the end of March.  As suspected I was not doing so well with it.  It seems I am a master of eating things I’m not supposed to.  Which is really not some big news flash.  I mean I’ve been at this for too many years.  It’s kinda cute that I thought this time would be different somehow.

So, I had bought “my husband” some jelly beans.  Of course I hate to taste them.  I felt like complete crap for days afterwards.  And I couldn’t stop!  I also had a drs. appointment and shocker….cholesterol is up again.  You know it’s kinda funny.  I can actually feel when it’s up.  There are certain symptoms I get every single time.  I really need to pay more attention to myself.  Anyhoo…realized (once again) maybe I shouldn’t eat sugar. <palm to forehead>  Gee, there’s a new revelation (not).  So I started thinking about things….here’s what I came up with now.

Doing no sugar, no grains, no gluten, no dairy….but tracking like Weight Watchers. So I do eggs for breakfast (and some deer bacon my brother in law made while it’s here!).  Nuts for a snack (usually pistachios, walnuts or almonds).  Steak or some other protein and a salad for lunch.  Mixed berries for an afternoon snack.  And then a protein (chicken/steak etc) and a vegetable for dinner.  Seems to be working so far.  I am combining with weight watchers only because I can not be trusted with portions.  If I don’t have boundaries, I will eat ALL THE FOODS! I mean I will eat an entire bag of pistachios or cashews without even thinking about it.  So this is making me take responsibility.  It also goes the other way.  When I was doing this before there were times I didn’t eat enough.  So it also makes sure I eat enough during the day.

I also started running.  I’m running a 5k this weekend.  Not looking to do anything spectacular.  I am going to use this one as a base run and try to do at least 1 5k a month until the goal run of the 10k Turkey Trot in November.  I have a plan!

I suppose it’s been a bit since I’ve written anything.  I want to say I’ve been busy, but that wouldn’t necessarily be true. 

Work…but who wants to talk about that!  We had my brother and sister-in law and 2 nephews here last week.  Huge change having a house full of people compared to just the two of us.  It was really nice to have family around.  Really makes me wish we lived closer to everyone.  I would be okay with people popping by all the time. 

Okay so now this whole life style change thing.  I feel like a complete mess!!!!  So I was breaking out in this hot rash ordeal.  Went through all sorts of tests – note I still haven’t gotten results back from last week!  But I was told that it wasn’t a rash that it was flushing.  So okay, what the heck is  causing this flushing?  Hasn’t really happened the last week.  It’s like I can feel it coming on but it doesn’t go full blown.  But they are positive it’s not an allergy of any kind (it’s not a raised rash…)  My only guesses are that it’s some sort of emotional reaction (stress/anxiety?).  Or it’s hormonal.  But the way the drs are with the tests….the world may never know.  I did have the allergist tell me that it may just go away or you may just need to take benedryl whenever it happens. Oh, okay…let’s not try to figure out why or anything….I’ll just accept that and carry on.  Why not.  (I really dislike drs.)

Okay cool.  So supposedly I’m not allergic to anything.  Well my gut will tell you that something is not making me happy.  I’ve cut down on nuts (pretty much eliminated them).  I swear when this is all said and done I’m going to be down to eating 5 things if I’m lucky.  I may not be allergic per se, but my body and digestive system do not like cashews, peppers, onions and cooked tomatoes (raw ones seem to be okay).  Fantastic.  I’ve read all sorts of things on what could cause this.  Overly fatty diet, which other than the nuts, I’ve stuck to lean everything.  So I don’t know that that’s it. 

I mean for the last (almost) 2 months I have not strayed, eaten anything I wasn’t supposed to. I’ve stuck to this thing to the letter. Not one slip up! (even when I made the minion cup cakes and all the other crap I cook for other people)  I have been a bit frustrated with the lack of weigh loss since month one.  I threw the scale this morning.  Made sure it was broken so I don’t have to worry about that factor any more!  I’m pretty much committed to the tape measure at this point.  Now I know it could be a number of factors.  And the scale weight is just a measurement of the mass of your body at that given time.  It  doesn’t tell the whole story.  Which I get, but I’m not exercising like I think I should be.  This is where I’ve slacked off.  But because I have such a struggle with food, I’m really not worried about extending the stages a bit until I feel like I have this food thing under control.  Then I can work on the strength.  I have just been so pre-occupied with not  falling off the wagon and giving into temptations that I’ve put phase 2 on the back burner for a few weeks. (and hoping my gut and flushing spells will work themselves out so I can move on).

I was sleeping really good and then this last week not so much.  I think I’m stressing over all this physical stuff.  I need to stop being so intense about everything and just go with it.  I really have no reason what so ever to be stressed about anything right now.  So not sure what my problem is.  I mean wow…stressing over not having to be stressed?  Drama queen much?

So last week I had a bout of breakouts.  At first I thought it was cashews because all signs pointed to the dreaded cashew.  I was heartbroken.  Then I cut them out and I still broke out.  So I went and had a blood test that came back with “yes you are having an allergic reaction” (well no shit.  I didn’t need a bloodtest to tell me that).  So then they ran a test for all food allergies (nuts, dairy, wheat, shellfish etc) and the regional grasses and pollens.  Nada!  So I’m officially not allergic to anything.

Well as for this week, I have not broken out yet.  I think I’m just going to keep an eye on it and if it happens again then I suppose I get to start the long process of what the heck is causing this!

Okay I mean I kinda knew in the back of my mind that it couldn’t be food.  I mean for the past month and a half I’ve been eating about as healthy as I have been (notice I didn’t say as you can get!)  No processed anything, no dairy, no sugar, no grains, NOTHING!  And the fact that I write everything that goes in my mouth down, it was pretty easy to figure out. (okay except for the jump on the fictitious cashew allergy that I totally panicked over.  I think I almost wanted it to be that so it was cut and dry and nothing crazy.)

So outside of that little tidbit of drama.  All is going well. Except for my husband walking into the house with Wendy’s this evening….I proceeded to chase him down the stairs and spray the house with air freshener to remove the smell of bacon cheeseburger and fries.  I mean honestly!

I have started doing the regular exercise of the world.  I forgot that I missed it.  I had a bit of trouble last week getting started, but am back on track this week.  I can’t believe how weak and out of shape I got in a month!

So it’s been a week since I lost my best friend and the best freakin dog ever. Certain things are just not the same around here. I’m sure time will heal that, but it just really sucks ass. Friskey (the cat) is taking this hard as well. They had a “Garfield/Odie” type relationship. Friskey is sitting in her spot a lot and has pretty much been following me around like glue.

So the lifestyle change update. REBOOT!!!!! Hit my 30 days and and now on Stage 2. Down 17 pounds and 10 inches since June 16th. I’m keeping on the same eating program….not adding anything back in yet. I can add dairy, but I really don’t miss it and wasn’t really a huge dairy fan to begin with. (Ice cream and I never got along). But I cut out the nightshade vegetables which really isn’t a huge thing since I don’t eat them anyway. So I am just going to keep doing what I’m doing. Need to really make sure I get this exercise thing going. I know it would be best to do this first thing in the morning. But I’m having a heck of a time getting my butt out of bed.

Now for the exciting news of the week. (ha!) So on Tuesday at work I break out in a rash. Of course my first thought is I’m allergic to something. So I’m thinking cashews since they have given me problems before. Then Wednesday at the same time the same thing. But I didn’t have any cashews. Thursday no rash at all. Today rash. Went to the lab today to have blood drawn to see what might be going on. Guess I’ll see what happens this weekend at home. If nothing happens then it’s something at work. If it happens at home it’s more. I’ve eliminated that it could be any food so who knows.

I really need to post more often.  Not much has happened in the last week. I’m coming up on the last week of my 30 days.  I made a grave mistake and got my scale out.  Good news I have lost weight along with feeling much better.  But I’ve now started to obsess again.  Now other things that I have to get back on track with….I really need to watch my nut intake.  Seems if I eat too many of them my body is not liking it at all!  It’s like my body knows.  But I have found that I’ve slowly started to compensate by using nuts.  So I’ve banned them for a few days until I can get a grip on this.  It’s so hard having an addicting personality!

I really need to start exercising.  I actually miss it.  (did I just say that?)  I mean we are still doing our hikes on Saturday, but they are getting hard since I haven’t been running like I was.  So, I think this weekend I’m throwing the scale away and start back on my running again.  Another big thing I have to get back to is making sure I don’t skip meals.  I have a tendency that if I can’t have what I want to eat I don’t eat at all.  Not good.

Now on another note.  I was introduced to the world of Eurovision.  Talk about starting to become obsessed.  I am going to watch the last few years…figure out who I like and who just sucks.  Speaking of just sucks.  This Cezar guy.  Dude….I really don’t know what to think of him.  He’s awful, but totally intriguing….it’s like a train wreck…you just have to watch and keep listening.  I’ve gone to the dark side!!!!!