If you do not want to see what a double mastectomy scar looks like stop now!

People do not like to see the reality of breast cancer. Everyone sees happy pictures on Facebook and how everything is going right in the world.  While that happy face is on, what lies beneath is sadness and anxiety and very mixed emotions about one’s sexuality and overall appearance.  What lies beneath is the secret that keeps some cancer patients from feeling feminine or desirable.  People automatically think you will just get reconstruction and the world will be better.  You will have those perfect perky breasts before you know it and no one will be the wiser.  But for some of us we can not have reconstructive surgery for months or years after our procedures.  We can not wear prosthesis right away.  We have to live with and face the raw reality every single day.  And to much of people’s surprise there are even some women who choose to never have the reconstructive surgery.  For myself I can not tell if I will feel differently in the future, but for what I went through with this surgery, I feel no real need right now to go under and have surgery to help boost my ego and make people around me more comfortable.  I am getting to the point where I am starting to feel comfortable in my own skin, battle wounds and all.  This is how I feel today. There is no telling my feelings a year or two from now.  But I have learned to accept myself as I am right now and not worry too much of the future and what others may say or feel.

With that I’m posting a picture of the battle wounds.  If you do not wish to see them then don’t look.  I am not embarrassed by them. I am empowered by them. The Greek Mythology of Amazons states that they were a tribe of female warriors that mostly fought with a bow and arrow.  When girls became of age to fight, they would remove their right breast to not impede their archery skill.  (Yes I will be taking up archery as soon as I’m healed)  So the Real Wonder Woman only had one breast!

I don’t look at this as a weakness…I look at it as a strength all 24 scars large and small I have accumulated from this. NOW I am proud to call my self a warrior!!