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What Next
I’ve been sitting here the last few days trying to figure out what my next steps are. What exactly it is I need to do and what I want to do. I was told at one point to look at this as having a blank slate. So I sit here staring at a blank slate…
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Another Year
Monday was my 47th birthday. I am glad to have made it this far. Thoughts are all over the place. My step father was 47 when he died of pancreatic cancer. So I feel pretty lucky. I think I’ve been a little blue the last week. One would think that I would be the complete…
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Oh The People
I’ve been swimming. The other day I was in the locker room getting changed and these 2 older women came in. One looked at me then looked at her friend and said “is the the WOMENS locker room? I thought this was the women’s locker room.” and then looked at me again while her friend…
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Nothing
Nothing really going on. Just bored. Went in for an eye exam today. Yay! New glasses. Shocking, my left eye is getting worse. It’s funny because the Dr is like all apologetic and acting like poor vision is something awful. “It will gradually get worse, but it will stop, I promise.” I’m like yeah it…
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Progress
My physical therapist told me to start swimming. So I’m back in the pool. I’m up to 14 laps. (25 meter pool) They are slow laps but they are laps. And I stop and stretch a bit or tread water at the end of each one for 30 seconds. But it has felt really good…
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Fa La La La La
Oh the holidays. I’ve finally recovered from Thanksgiving. I had my son and his fiance here for a week. So much excitement and so much emotion and so much cooking and cleaning. I took a week off from the gym because I was just exhausted. Had about enough energy to cook thanksgiving and stay up…
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Let’s Get this Party Started!!!
So the first week after treatment was pretty much a wash. I had a heck of a time with the transition of one of the new meds they put me on. I decided to not take that one anymore and just stick with what they originally had me on (Lorazapam/Ativan). I’ll take 2 pills vs.…
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First Day of the Rest of My life
Well…yesterday was my last radiation session. I was doing good emotionally…then I stopped in the Chemo lounge like I usually do to say hi to everyone. And I lost it. Luckily the Social Worker was there. So I asked her if we could talk a bit. Sunday I had a complete mental breakdown. I had…
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No going topless for a year!
My skin seems to be holding up so Monday will be my very last radiation treatment. It also will be the very end of the treatment trilogy. (Chemo, surgery, radiation). Monday I start on my 10-year stint of meds. whoo hoo. I’m excited. But the radiation nurse gave me this information hand-out of how to…
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Preparing for The New Normal
I’ve spent a lot of today doing research on this new medication I’m going to be starting on Monday. Talking to the Doctors, the Pharmacists, reading medical papers. I started reading people’s experiences, but I don’t know how crazy or truthful these testimonies are…I mean, perception is different for everyone. Everyone’s situation is different, and…
Making of A Diva
Becoming who you are – at every stage
