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Let’s Get this Party Started!!!

Nov15

So the first week after treatment was pretty much a wash. I had a heck of a time with the transition of one of the new meds they put me on. I decided to not take that one anymore and just stick with what they originally had me on (Lorazapam/Ativan).  I’ll take 2 pills vs. 1 pill.  It works well enough most of the time. I would rather do that then deal with the mess of the other stuff. The side effects are pretty minimal for the Aromasin. I’m slow to get moving in the morning and then get pretty fatigued later in the day. I do have muscle and bone pain if I sit too long.  As long as I get up and move regularly I’m pretty okay. I have my ditzy days….I mean trying to do more than one thing at a time is a challenge. I’m going to start doing word puzzles and other mind game things to see if that helps any.

Becuase of my lack of sleep last week I didn’t go to the gym. Went Sunday finally. Only did 20 minutes, but I changed over to the treadmill again.  My initial thought was to start out slow and just take it from ground zero. Then about 10 minutes in I decided to jog every other minute. I wanted to see if I could do it and how it would feel afterward. I was a little swollen in the arms and chest but nothing major. Probably more from my lack of water intake! Yesterday I had a super bad day mentally. I was having issues with doing little things.  I went to the store and what should have taken maybe an hour, took me 4.  Nothing concerning just would lose track of what I was looking for and then got distracted looking at other things. So I’ll start Yoga next Monday!  Today I went and started out on the elliptical again…yeah, I now have this thing in my head. I’m a goal oriented person. So this jogging/walking thing is meeting that.  I got on the treadmill and set it for 20 minutes. Instead of doing every other minute, I had the track setting on so I ran half the track then walked half the track to see how far I would get.  So the goal is to be able to run the full 20 minutes and then add from there.  I had the thought of doing the 5k I did in January when I first got to Missoula. In talking with a friend tonight, she pretty much convinced me that I should set that goal. Now I am not expecting to run the whole thing and place. I just want to be able to run most of it and cross the finish line. I started thinking about it and it would be kinda symbolic for me. Last year’s 5k was on January 29th. I was officially diagnosed February 9th.  So it would be kind of a pick up where I left off sort of thing.

I feel like I’m on the right track. Diet wise I’m doing pretty good, other than not drinking enough water. I’ve started to plan the meals on Sunday. And I actually went grocery shopping by myself for the first time in 9 months. It felt good. It felt normal. So I have my little cards with the dinners for the week. So far it’s working (okay yeah, it’s Tuesday). But I haven’t been too keen on anything overly sweet. It seems if I have anything too sweet or too salty my arms and chest area swell up. So at least I now have a built-in indicator. OH! I got little pill cases with the days of the week on them to make sure I take everything I’m supposed to. I know it’s silly, but these are the things that excite me these days.

Saturday we went out to get a bed frame for the guest room. The mattress has just been sitting on the floor.  Well, they wanted like $80 for just a basic metal frame to get it off the floor.  We went into one of the furniture stores and there was a clearance/scratch and dent section and there was a complete headboard and everything for $200. It was originally $599.  So I think it was a good deal. This thing is so high the side railings are used as steps to get up in the bed.  IT’S AWESOME!!!!! And of course I had to get a new bedspread…then the curtains didn’t match…it just snowballed.  But the guest room is now all set up. Now to work on the craft room so I can start….crafting!

Oh. So I go to look for a picture for this post. I google “Party” and then go to images. Wow…..just wow.  Sorry no picture I’m still processing.  LOL

First Day of the Rest of My life

Nov8

Well…yesterday was my last radiation session. I was doing good emotionally…then I stopped in the Chemo lounge like I usually do to say hi to everyone.  And I lost it.  Luckily the Social Worker was there.  So I asked her if we could talk a bit.  Sunday I had a complete mental breakdown. I had decided I wasn’t going to finish and just quit. (yes with one session left…I’m such a rebel).  She explained to me that it is completely normal. Some people after treatment go back to work after everything (or just continue to work) and like 3 months later it hits them like a ton of bricks.  In my case, I don’t have a job to continue or go back to.  When I got to Montana the plan was to set up house and then get a job and start over.  But this got in the way.  So between the pressure of selling the house last year, and then moving and then getting diagnosed, I folded.  I was to a point where I didnt’ HAVE to be strong anymore.  As I explained to her, throughout this process I would have my little hissy fit and cry for like 5-10 minutes and then shake it off and deal again.  There was that little voice in my head that would tell me to knock it off and woman up and get back in there.  Sunday, that little voice wasn’t there.  It just let me go.  So after talking to her it really helped to hear that it’s okay. That I’m normal. That I need to look at this as an opportunity to do whatever I want. I have a totally blank slate to work with.  And yes it can be scary…but it can also be exciting.  She told me to write down everything I like to do. What I want out of life. Then go and find things to try. Take a class or go to some club meeting.  I have absolutely nothing to lose.   My little voice is back…he is tired…but he is back.  So after treatment we went and had a beer at the place we had a beer the day I was diagnosed. Seemed fitting.

Last night I started a new sleep anti-anxiety medication Trazodone (Desyrel).  I’m not sure how I feel about this one.  I took it at 8:30 and about 20 minutes later I felt like I was floating. Then I was out like a rock. Woke up at midnight. Went back to sleep for 2 hours and then was up from about 2:30 to 4:00am. Went back to sleep until 5:15am. Stayed up for about an hour and then went back to sleep again, woke up about 9:00am.  Now the first 3 hours no dreams, I was out.  Then the next 2 hours I had crazy dreams. I mean at one point I had no idea what was real and what was the dream. I was having dreams within dreams. I mean in my dream I woke up and was telling my husband about the crazy dreams I had.  It got a little better the last few hours…normal kind of dreams but very vivid.  It’s almost like everything that I fear or that has happened that bothers me came out in my dreams.  I’ll see how it goes tonight.  I was a little groggy when I finally woke up…but if the dreams don’t calm down we are going to have to change this med.  I mean I don’t mind vivid…and sometimes they can be entertaining…but some stuff is just down right scary!

Today was my first day on Aromasin (Exemestane).  So far so good.  Took it at 9:30.  Didn’t have my first hot flash until 3:45.  That’s doable.  I don’t expect I’ll start feeling anything terribly different the first day…if I feel any different at all.  I mean a lot of the side effects are the same as the Lupron I’m already on, so they may just intensify a bit and I won’t notice….(let’s hope for that).

I was also supposed to just sit here all day and just watch TV. That was the plan.  I was going to be a total bum!  Well…I went downstairs and ended up starting on my craft room.  Mind you, I haven’t had the energy since we moved in to get to it.  So just about everything is still in boxes.  I have to figure out a shelving system of where I’m going to put all this stuff!  I also organized all the CD’s we have. You know, made sure the right CD was in the right case.  And then proceeded to put them in a box since no one really uses CDs anymore.  But it was fun to see what we have!

So my plan is to finish setting up my craft room.  Then make some stuff. Look to see if there are any classes on anything I might be interested in. Keep an eye on the job boards to see what is out there. I have kinda been doing this since I got here so that won’t really be any different.  I’m going to see how I feel the first of the year and maybe register with the staffing agency in town do some temporary work for a bit, maybe part time until I find something I like to do that they will give me money for.

My goal is to move forward and not look back….there really isn’t anything I need back there.  I’ve spent the last week mentally preparing myself for LIFE AFTER CANCER. Well, here we are. We have broken me down to rock bottom mentally and physically.  And this is how we start to make a Diva…

Because I’m Fabulous!

Nov2

I met with my Medical Oncologist today.  I’m going to start on Aromasin (Exemestane) on Monday.  I take the Lupron shots every 6 months. This shot shuts my ovaries down so I don’t produce any estrogen. The adrenal glands still produce hormones so the Aromasin will stop this production of estrogen. This should ensure that this cancer that is estrogen driven can’t redevelop or do anything. I will be on these two medications for the next 10 years.  So the Lupron forces me into menopause.  Because there is no test to see when exactly my body will go into menopause for real, they are doing 10 years….by that time my body should have hit the natural menopause state. Interesting stuff right?  Now the Aromasin is a bit on the harsh side. Most people get put on Tamoxifen which has fewer side effects but isn’t as effective for my type of cancer. But if I can’t tolerate the Aromasin I’ll get switched over to the Tamoxifen.  If I can tolerate the Aromasin I may end up getting my ovaries removed so I don’t have to do the Lupron shot anymore. That would be one less medication to take. We’ll see how it goes. (just like Christmas…going to be quite the surprise!)

We are also stopping my Ativan (Lorazepam) for insomnia since it has seemed to stop working. We are going to change it up and going to Desyrel (Trazodone) we’ll see how that works out for me.  It’s supposed to not only help me sleep at night but help with any mood swings due to all the lack of hormones in my body. We’ll see how that works out. YAY Drugs!

At this appointment, my oncologist tells me now that I’m pretty much done with treatment that not everyone who goes through the rigorous aggressive course of treatfabment I took makes it.  I honestly didn’t know how to take that?  I mean that’s kinda scary. I have to think she meant that they had to break the treatment up some or change chemo drugs. Go me. Wow. Oh. I honestly have no idea how to react to that.  Just glad I didn’t know the odds before hand.
She checked out the lumps that have been bugging me the last few weeks.  I developed some bb sized lumps in my chest so when I found them a few weeks back my heart just sunk. She said they were probably nothing but we would keep an eye on them. The odds of any cancer developing at this point is about impossible.  But again, we would check them to see if they have changed in 6 weeks when I go back.

After this appointment, I went to Support Group.  Lately, I can only stay for the first 1/2 hour since I have to go to radiation.  Well, there is a new member. She had been diagnosed with stage 1 breast cancer 12 years ago. She had a lumpectomy and was good.  A few months ago it came back as metastatic breast cancer – Stage IV. My heart just hurts for her. She was so strong to come to support group and to announce that you have Stage IV cancer has to be just one of the hardest things in the world to do. I just wanted to hug her. While not curable, it is treatable. She’ll go on an oral chemo to keep it under control…..And I was just sitting there freaking out that this new medication said that I could lose my hair.  So I’m no longer freaking out about the possibility of losing my hair again or have it thin. This is why they make wigs.  So be it if it happens. Again something brought me down to the reality of the whole situation and to just be thankful to be alive. I also thought: I’m sure glad I made the decision to have a double mastectomy vs. just the single.  I mean they said that the odds of it coming back in another breast were slim to none. I was like yeah, it was a slim to none chance I got it in the first place so….I’d rather go through this once then have to go through it twice. But hey..there is no guarantee something else won’t develop down the line.  So I think I’ll just enjoy the time I have here and deal with whatever comes when it does.

Then I went to radiation. #30 #2 of the booster. 3 more left.  I’ve resorted to gang signs in the count-down.  But the chest is looking pretty bad ass at this point.  It’s getting quite impressive. Met with the Radiology Oncologist.  I told her about the bb sized lumps and she checked them out and said it was just scar tissue and effects to the tissue from radiation. Nothing to worry about. But again she said that we would keep an eye on it over time when we did CT scans.  Because you know I get to do those every 6 months now. So if anything develops from here on out we will catch it pretty quick. But she wants to see me again on Friday to check the status of my skin to see if we will do the last radiation treatment on Monday or just end it on Friday.  They are pretty impressed that I haven’t had to take a break with radiation. Most people have to take a few weeks off about half way through. It’s because I’m just that fucking amazing….really.

Now I’m not usually the type of person that boasts about myself…I’m actually very modest….even though I joke a lot about the whole Fabulous thing. But you know I think for this I’m going to make an exception.  Don’t worry…I won’t let it get to my head and I’ll only do it for a few days. :)

Oh. The downside of all this anti-hormone nonsense….my drinking days are pretty much over. I suppose it’s okay. I had a good run. And any more when I have wine or beer I feel like crap after just 1…so be it.